changing clouds ♥
Graduation today got me thinking - yes, I can think; Shocker, I know.
But it is true isn't it? Your Fate, Destiny, lies in your own hands. No one else's. I can mould it as I will. It doesn't sound very 'Fate' now, does it? 'Cuz in the end, it is taking what is thrown at you & making it work for you. Make circumstance work for you, rather than be beaten by it.
Everything has a brighter side, every cloud has a silver lining - to be painfully cliche. But clouds change, reform, cycle 'round - which is pretty science/geog. But aside from the fact it isn't really artsy, the analogy works. Circumstances change, we go through the same patterns in life - only slightly different (smarter, hopefully!) as we go along. I like to think that as the clouds change, so do we - and we learn a little more about ourselves and everything else.
So I guess you can say these two years have been one cycle - a cycle that I'm soon completing. Maybe I'm as childish as ever. Maybe not.
The world isn't black&white, no two people are the same. So you can't simply judge someone like that. Objectivity is subjective, after all. People may not be who you thought they were.
I've shed some idealism, grown some wings. I know now I fell too easily, trusted too easily. I've learnt that there is always humor to be found in every situation, that smiling hurts more than screams. I've found those who really matter and those who I don't really give a fuck for.
I know now what really matters, and that I'll put in everything to see it through.
So perhaps it is fitting today as the 'last day' as part of 2A01 2010 was heralded by If We Ever Meet Again & A17. Because it is true: what really matters now is my As. After which, it is truly a new beginning away from all my stupidity including both A1s, & my particular regret over that idiot. And "I'll never be the same" (IWEMA) as like the clouds, "someday I'll change too" (Changin') & my someday has come.