roses&zakura

irrecognizable LOVE

"Shall I tell you the difference between you and I? It's class. It's like the story of the monkey trying to capture the moon. No matter how he struggles, it's just the moon's reflection on the water he sees. So he only sinks into the water. Time after time, he sinks."

yup, bleach insanity right now.
i guess its kinda akazakura?
its so... strange.
kinda mirrors what i wish for
in a few years time
if my irrecognizable does come true.

if i could chose,
i'd be the moon.
forever out of your reach.

i guess its kinda lame
and stupid
but i still can't help dreaming of it sometimes
all my daydreams...
those are all false ideals
and don't i know it
i prefer my dreams
they're more snippet and
waywayway easier to dismiss

i never know why i dream of such things though
a lot of it are really ridiculous
and oh-so-impossible

fated, my ass

... If fate is a millstone, then we are the grist. There is nothing we can do. So I wish for strength. If I cannot protect them from the wheel, then give me a strong blade, and enough strength... to shatter fate."

I refuse to believe in fate
sure, I won't pull a Neji,
but i don't believe in it
what?
we'll meet again and end up together?
no, I refuse to believe in that

the idea doesn't appeal to me
not the way it'd've in the past
i'm over him i guess.
false hopes die hard
but that ship has sailed
and all the hope went with it.

I had enough (:
there are far more important things now
like damn As...

I'm scared now
mye results are so fucking screwed.
h1 results are expected:
gp C math A
i'm relieved that i got what i 'wanted'
except that i know gp needs improvement

h2s are the terrifying ones
history FELL like crazy to D
fuck i failed essays for the first time this year!
three of them, wth!!~
It doesn't matter the rest are As...
It just proves that i can produce As
but i'm not doing it!
sbq reached an all time low of 17
my first B too.
le sigh.
careless, i guess.

econs went up, i don't deny.
S, this time.
I scrapped a pass for most
except one damn essay
that went awfully wrong.
Else it'd have been an E
but its still drastically bad

haven't gotten lit
but we're told its baddddd
and judging from the shitload of homework?
it is bad.

maximum i'd get for points is around 55
guess i'm pretty accurate...
its quite sad really
so much for 65, ne?

i'm tempted to find instrumentals to songs
just to singalong for funnnn~
i mean, it'd be fun to upload 'em
not like anyone can see it =.=
but extremely retarded.

i'll go back to reading bleach naowwww~
sakura, zakura (:
too much japanese cherry blossom scent!
i blame bodyshop products
just went to buy todayyyyy

scent of roses,
you'll never have me.
even if you need me.

lys @ 23:09, 16/06/2010