musing the future
Went for dental ytd. I guess its sorta wishes coming true. Considering what I'll have to do for the whole process, it's possible that those people i don't see after As won't know me in a few years time.
It's sort of a dream come true then: a fresh start, kinda. Leaving a lot behind.
Sort of like what I told Pree a few days ago when Venice&Ning were up to nonsense: All i want to do now is to clear my As, get to uni & leaving all this behind. I'm afraid she might've taken it the wrong way. It's not that I wanna heck all my friends&all. God, no. I'm not like that :(
I just wanna be rid of certain people. The monster is, of course, one. & Duh the erm constipated gerbil. There are others that I don't really care if I keep or lose as acquiantances but.. My friends I sure as hell still wanna keep.
"Why the hell do you care what people think? Just be yourself & heck care, you dumbass gaki!" I can already hear 'Ttiana scolding me if I go too far. I have gone too far, been too stupid. That's why I wanna leave it. Keep it, confine it, to the past where it belongs.
I can only hope my friends understand. It's not that I wanna ditch .or anything - I have no intention to -but I just wanna leave some things, some assholes, some bad memories behind.
But duh, I gotta get there first. Study for As, I guess! There's still the screen next year to target! Study time(:
lys @ 23:34, 15/08/2010