tipsy ♥
Today (yesterday?) was fraught with so many stupid decisions, I don't know what to say.
I slept at 12+ knowing that I'd only survived on 3 hours of sleep the day before - meaning that I would crash like crazy but I didn't want to care. This morning, I refused to get up when my alarm went off and persistently burrowed under my pillow-mountain when my dad tried to wake me up.
Given my dramatics last night about not going to school: whining about wanting alcohol, piano playing, extreme music while in the shower (mood music, if you will: Dream Theater's
As I Am, and
You Not Me, Evanescence's
My Immortal and
Sweet Sacrifice, Within Temptation's
See Who I Am... The usual!), and not to mention temper tantrums... Well, basically dad wasn't too sure if I was serious about not going to school or not.
I ended up going 'cuz I did say I'd lend Yawn my stupid history stuff (epic, seriously - why would I need a copy of my own notes. Oh well. At least I don't have to carry between school and home then!) and there was consult for gp =.= FML, I didn't realize it was cancelled until I got to school!
I really should've checked my phone for messages before leaving =.= I didn't see Val's message until I was in econs class, darn it! I could've just ponned and dropped off my history file along the way to Tashauna's... or something! Stupid =.=
Against my better judgment (I can't believe I fell for that darn act! I should so totally tell the wolf that she lost weight!), I told Val about what I thought about yesterday's history tutorial and let her read. I'm not too sure if I regret it or not.
With Vivienne, Rachelle and Tashauna, it's easy not to have regrets. They know everything anyway. I don't need to worry if they'd accidentally tell the other person involved, most of the time. 'Ttiana's so adept at keeping secrets I don't need to worry. And they have no one of import to tell anyway? You can't tell me Rach'll tell the
fruity alcoholic alien who'll then tell the
llama and then yeahhhh... Not gonna happen.
Maybe, just maybe, I'm oversensitive. But I've always been criticized for that, anyway. I think what Tash and Rach were telling me was that yes, it's bloody rude but if you have a damn problem with it, can you please be the gaki we know and just tell him off? If it's that
f***ing annoying, then say so. Indirect breeds indirect. Etc. Etc.
I'm making excuses for myself when I say I'm scared to be yelled at again, it seems to be what they're saying. But hey, you never know! I think Tash was this close to tossing the shuriken I bought her for her birthday at my head. I conceded, in the end. I always do when the two of them "gang up" on me - the next time, I'll just say what's on my mind, reckless or not.
Honestly, just sitting around in Tashauna's living room with her and Rachelle was so fun. We played Call of Duty 4 Modern Warfare - I
fail at it, I swear, and Rach keeps getting blown up by grenades. At least 15 times by the time I left, I think? Some Audition too, because dad refused to let me install it, ugh. I wanted to play Dragon Age (Zevran's so
fun!) but I finished my game already and 'Ttiana'd whack me like crazy over the Alistair-Anora thing again!
It's one of those things I miss: hanging out with my best friends doing stupid things that I won't do otherwise. I was giving them disgusting SSMs that had them yelling at me as they got themselves killed. Or one of us would be saying something then get distracted by watching the game - me, most of the time. It got me distracted from bitching about the whole history thing, shockingly. I think Tashauna was like: what the hell, you bitch half-way then stop mid-sentence and stare at the screen?!?! I thought you were pissed?!?! =.=
We all do our own things now: Science, Arts, Accountancy, what the hell? But there are still things that I do with them that I can never do with anyone else. I cracked primary school (Tash)/lower sec jokes, played ridiculous SSM that include guys from wayyyyy back, the present, anime, games, shows and everything under the sun... We talked about gaming, played games and talked nonsense (Tash's Gene and Rachelle's Martini... Well, nothing for me but bitching and teasing
♥). Oh, not to mention the whacking. Ouch, it's been a while since I actually had to defend, damn it. I'm rusty at blocking 'Ttiana's hits already, drat. It's all fine and well that I hit plenty in class - hehe Ezra gets it all the time, I feel kinda guilty! - but defensive really sucks!
Damn it, I miss it. Lucky me, clique "conference" at Jodie's place tomorrow. Swim, eat, talk rubbish, mahjong maybe? The usual. I needa remember to charge the camera. Camwhore while I can.
I weaseled mum into letting me drink tonight. Yea sure, it's only breezer (I am not about to mix Sapphire with anything yet. I'll KO in under an hour) but it was a pretty dumb decision. I'll probably wake up with a hangover tomorrow. I think I'm kinda tipsy though. Just a little. I feel kinda... detached from I'm actually doing. Odd. Sighhh. Or maybe it's just a lack of sleep.
A severe lack of sleep.
Well, since my brain's screaming I need to sleep, so be it. I kinda dread the headache tomorrow already. I think I shall go drink water just in case then sleep before mother dearest gets on my case. After all, amazingly both idiotic sisters of mine are sound asleep.
Oyasumi nasai! ♥