end of a year
holy hell (though hell isn't supposed to be holy)
its been a while
not used to typing in this format anymore
lol.
its like writing op script -.-
too much PW i swear
i <3 my slides though
can't help it
i'm a formatting genius
okay, major ego trip
*squashsquashsquash*
cannot end up like my classmate...
promo results tmr
i'm so... emotionless re that
i mean, i know i'm gonna promote
so why bother right?
so sian.
but i'm scared i dunno what to say
i suck at be sympathetic. period.
but really unlikely we're gonna stick as a class
so wasted. i'll miss some people
rach can't say someone!
said someone (as much as i hate it)
is most likely gonna be in my class
*cries*
lol.
vivi will say i'm in denial
she's been saying it since what? april?
come on! HIS-STO-RY!
i just don't want to revive old 'scandals' thats all
who knew i'd get that many srsly
i was planning to be like ttiana
i'm a failure at playing 'haru-chan's illusion
really. i suck at it.
i can't even pull off the sadistic serenely smiling thing!
only managed it for a WHILE.
I'm not cut out of it.
happy and hyper's more fun (:
but if there's anything this year taught me its that:
1) somethings are better left unsaid
(i'm still trying to apply it. epic fail, srsly!)
2)
best friends can make things better always - even if they make you feel stupid and dumb they still make you LAUGH and that's what's most important
3) i'm still too lazy for my own good - should have been born a Nara, srsly!
i keep lying in circles
i need to stop doing that
honestly, just keep my mouth shut
or tell the truth
but again, i don't wanna revive the past
it took long enough for the dust to settle
i still regret today
so much for regret not being my teardrops!
i can only blame myself
best friends though.
they make me see the funny side to thing
turn any bad situation into an insult-fest
get what i mean without my saying it
it just makes me miss them
morewe don't see enough of each other anymore
i miss when i could just run around class,
or dash down the corridor,
when i needed to bitch/rant/complain/joke
there's no one to share the inside jokes with anymore!
i didn't make as much of an effort as i should have
but it was so difficult
stupid 'scandal'ing shit!
but i honestly regret my actions in practically all of them
1st F: for not clarifying
2nd K: for lying
3rd B: for being reckless and being unclear
and i dare call ttiana relationship stupid
i should just slap myself
what's done is done i guess
its not like they'll ever see this
heck, it's freakin' coded
they're too dense to know its them
but its not just only that that i'm lazy
i could've done way more for work
haizzz mug during hols =D
oh well. sleep time.
i'll muse over random stuff and emo in the emo corner growing mushrooms another day
else i'll fall asleep tmr which will be so epic fail.
oyasumi nasai!